Do you know how I feel?

Do you know how I feel?
I think not, and you certainly do not want to swap feelings with me .
Because I am walking now towards the opposite direction of traffic.
Like to help another person survive in a different culture.
He was already in the hole cases with cultural differences.
Another way of thinking from people that had overtaken him.
With different think from him, he lost all the friends around him already.
If You used another person or they used You, this can never be hold for a long period, because everyone will eventually know the real person is after .
But I did not see it ,because I had other feelings and thoughts.
Even I did not know what was lurking and I also not expected it .
With premeditation he knew to make his steps for the way to go in my life.
I can still hear him saying you're like a brother to me.
But when I look in the mirror, I will think contrary of him.
Because I Am proud of myself that I am helping someone when he is in need.
But it's all gone differently then we agreed before.
Once again that I've borrowed my trust to someone and no have regret.
It a good lesson for me and hope it will not more come back.
And believed in the beautiful future that we could build together.
I was thinking its more nice to work together with similar values grown up and speak the same language in a foreign country.
But He just grabbed it and abuse it.
In life you get what you deserve and the faith will decide about him.
That's what I believe in but with a much sadness feeling.
I wish you a healthy life.
Kindly Regards,
Author Jan Jansen